VAGINOPLASTY – NO, NOT A PORNOGRIND BAND
Decibel have followed-up on their fascinating 2008 article on the transformation of Cretin’s Dan Martinez into Marissa Martinez with an interview with Martinez chronicling her vaginoplasty. Which is exactly what you think it is. Here’s an excerpt:
In the months leading up to your surgery, what kinds of emotions were coursing through your veins?
Honestly, I really couldn’t wait to get my surgery. For the most part I was really excited. But, I did have some anxiety over it too. Even though I was well informed, I just didn’t know what to expect. There’s so much mystery and intrigue out there when it comes to this surgery. “What will it look like?” “What will it feel like?” “Will it work?” “Will I be able to cum?” Of course I had talked with some other post-op t-girls to see what they had to say, but they often came off so overwhelmingly positive about their experience that I found it difficult to take all that they were saying genuinely.
So, ultimately I reached a point where I had to ask myself “Do I truly need this, and why?” My immediate response was a resounding “YES!!!” even if I hadn’t really articulated the reasons why. I realized that no matter how taboo or exotic it was to be a “Chick with a dick,” that paled in comparison to actually feeling comfortable in my own body. That’s ultimately what it comes down to. Sure, there were moments where using my penis was fun. But, there were even more times where using it felt wrong and I would find my self staring down at my partner with total jealousy. It felt like I was on the wrong side of the cock, and I hated it.
Then when I started living as a woman, it was either in the way, or completely out of place. So, even “not using it” became uncomfortable because I perceived it as something that just should not have been there.
There’s also physical health reasons that encouraged my decision to get the surgery. I had to take high doses of hormones, and testosterone blockers, to combat the testosterone that was produced by my testicles. Pills are really bad for your liver, and I took a lot of them. The hormones put you at risk for blood clots as well, which can lead to heart attacks or strokes. I only need to take estrogen now, and it’s a much smaller, and healthier, dose. So, ultimately, I just knew I had to get cut, and I couldn’t wait.
Although I suspect a lot of you will have a fairly immature reaction to this conversation, I think it’s really interesting stuff, and definitely worth a read. Check it out here.